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Saturday, March 19th, 2005

(2    songssing)

Time:4:46 pm.
Just to let everyone know, I've gone back to dullsparkler06.


Wednesday, November 17th, 2004

(10    songssing)

Time:9:05 pm.
Goddess, help me.


Completely erased. Love? Gone. Social? Gone. School?



School = death. Seriously.


Stupid people.

Sunday, November 7th, 2004

(1    songssing)

Time:3:42 pm.
a distant sun
You are A Distant Sun

A Distant Sun is one of my
favorites because I think we have all felt the
way that lyrics describe. You have experienced
great heartbreak and don't feel alive without
your love there. You don't know how to live
without this person you around and even though
he/she is gone you still feel they are a great
part of you.

Your Lyrics

We're never been
The day has come
I'm feeling that your sun
Shines away from me

Tease me
Holding my hands you smile again
I couldn't see you away from me
I do realize it now

Living in me
You are living in me

You are living in me

I feel you by my side
Your living soul wants to run away with me
Inside of me

And now
Will something happen to me?
How did I lose my guide?
You left me all alone

But now it is to late
I know it is natural but now
What can I do without your presence here?
A never-ending pain

Living in me

You are living in me

I feel you by my side
Your living soul wants to run away with me
Inside of me

I feel you by my side
And I'm sure that I can't forget you
You are inside of me

You are inside of me

Which Of My Favorite Lacuna Coil Songs Are You?
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How true. I love this song so much.

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Time:2:52 pm.
Mood: content.

Hmmm. Well, life's been okay, I guess. Billy Billy is apparently under house arrest, and poor Chuck cannot beat him up. Chuck is also distressed because he wants a deeper relationship with Sarah. So I was his psychiatrist and told him they need to talk, because that's the basis of any and all relationships. Try to chit-chat with him, Sarah, please, for the love of the Goddess. Either that or just break it off, because the poor kid is about to lose his mind.

What else?

HUGE Global test tomorrow. Probably should start studying for that.

And, oh yeah.


KYLE <333


Sorry. Heh. I'm just so happy-ful. Friday night was the best night ever. I hung out with my most favorite person in the whole world, Jae! Then I went to Long Beach to meet up with the crew. Kyle and I were sitting in Jake's room, then we decided to go out into the hallway. He says, "You like me?" And I was all, "Yep" So then he gave me a lil kiss. It was so sweet! Later we left Jake's and went to Georgia Park. Personally, I like it better at night. I dunno. I'm just a vampiress, I guess. :-p Kyle and I snuggled on the bench. It twas then he asked me out. He took my hand and said, "I like you lots. Wanna go out?" lol. Nah, not really. I don't remember exactly what he said. But all I know is that he's my BF FOH LYFE XoXoXo KyLe!!! He kissed my neck and we slow danced under the street lights. :-) He's so romantic. I *heart* him. When he left, he promised to call me today. We're supposed to be hanging out on Wednesday night and Thursday. I hope we do. Yay.

Yesterday was quite fun also! Me and Jae went to ze mall. We bought MATCHING! Nightmare Before XMAS hats! I love it! But I didn't wanna wear it because it was making my forehead EXTREMELY itchy. Sorry Justine! I know it made you sad. :-( Then we went to Tower Records, where I bought 3 CD's. A Blink 182 CD for Haley's birthday and 2 APC albums (Mer de Noms and Thirteenth Step). I wanted to get eMOTIVe also, but my dear mother wouldn't allow it. But I'm sure I'll be purchasing it soon. Either that or it'll be a Christmas present.

Later when we got back we met up with Nomad Billy and Chuckaroo. Went back to Nomad Billy's house. Strange disturbing happenings. Won't get into it. Then later that night I went to Jillian's with SHELLY!!! IT WAS SO MUCH FUN! :-D For further information, read Michelle's livejournal. (sortainsane ).

And I'm so scared for tomorrow. Red tryouts!!! ::shudder:: Aerobics and Cheer for me. Can't wait, though. I hope I make it! :-)

RTV 2005!!!! WOOT!!!

That's all for now. Wish me luck!

*~Maggie~* )O(

Wednesday, October 27th, 2004

(2    songssing)

Time:8:42 pm.
Mood: I miss my childhood....

Bold everything you remember as a kid.

Fresh Prince of Bel-Air ("Smell ya later!!!")
Fraggle Rock
G.I. Joe
Are You Afraid of the Dark? (scared the shit out of me, could never watch em.)
Secret World of Alex Mack (YAY!!!)

Nightmare Before Christmas (Still love it <333)
Welcome Freshman
Space Cases
The Muppet Show (whoever didn't watch the muppets as a kid is seriously disturbed.)
Muppet Babies
Salute Your Shorts
Legends of the Hidden Temple
You Can't Do That On Television
What Would You Do?

Double Dare
Rocko's Modern Life (::echoes:: Rocko's Modern Life!)
All That
Ren and Stimpy (yes, but I hated this show...)

Clarissa Explains It All (Used to fucking love this show. Dude.)
The Torklesons (never heard of it.)
Pete and Pete (of course.)
Stick Stickley
Angry Beavers (YEAH!! OMG! The yellow and brown beavers! Ned and someone else who I forgot the name of!)
AAH! Real Monsters
Tiny Toons (Tiny toon adventures come and join the fun! doo doo doo dee doo)

Pinky and the Brain
The Babysitter's Club (!!!!)
Gullah Gullah Island (Come and let's play together in the bright sunny weather, let's all go to GULLAH GULLAH ISLAND!! GULLAH GULLAH! :-p)
Richard Scary
Dumbo's Circus
Ocean Girl
Mystery Files of Shelby Woo
Snick Snacks
Dunkaroos (those were sooo yummy.)

Koala Yummies
Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego? (Katherine's old obsession.)
Nick Magazine
The Goonies (I HEART THE GOONIES!!! :D)
Ernest Movies (of course. Used to love those.)
Radio Flyer
Disney Watchers
Adventures in Wonderland
Homeward Bound (::cries::)
The Adventures of Yellow Dog
Milo and Otis
Neverending Story

Who Framed Roger Rabbit? (OMG! I STILL WATCH THIS! )
The Lion King
101 Dalmations
The Secret Garden
Pete's Dragon
Hocus Pocus (I put a spell on youuuuuu and now you're mineeee doot doot doot doot doot!)

Secret of Roan Inish
Land Before Time (The first movie made me cry!!! :( Little Foot's MOMMY DIES!!!!! WAAAAHH!!!)

Fern Gully
Secret of NIMH

Gummi Bears
Care Bears (who doesn't remember those crazy care bears?)

A Little Princess (such a sad movie. that's all I remember) 
Little Pony

Black Beauty
Rainbow Brite (OMG! RAINBOW BRITE! YAY!)
Lady Lovely Locks
Candyland (my sister and I used to fight over who got the Queen Frostine card. LOL!)
Don't Wake Daddy!

Mousetrap (a bitch to assemble...)
Don't Break the Ice
Hungry Hungry Hippos

Tinker Toys
Sky Dancers (LOVED THESE!!! OOOOH!!! FAERIES!!!)
Polly Pocket (LOVED THESE TOO!!!! OMG!)
Hypercolor T-Shirts
Lite Brite (Lite Brite, Lite Brite! Wish I may, wish I might! I can make it with lite brite!!!)
Side Ponytails
Stirrup Pants
Saddle Shoes
Barbies (what little girl didn't love Barbies?)
Beanie Babies (Yes!)
Tamagotchies (YES!)
Choose Your Own Adventure
Magic Attic Club (used to fucking read those all the time!)
American Girl (Good times, good times..)
Island of the Blue Dolphin
Saved By The Bell (It's all right, cause I'm saved by the BELL!!! Still love it)
Full House (Everywhere you look!! ::doot doot doot::)
Step By Step

Sabrina, the Teenage Witch
Boy Meets World (MY OLD OBSESSION!!!!! AWWWWWWW!!!!!!!)
Mork and Mindy
Simpsons (still watch it)

Eerie Indiana
Third Rock From The Sun
Tracey Ullman Show
Growing Pains (ANOTHER OLD OBSESSION!!!!!!!! I heart the Seavers <333 Leonardo DiCaprio guest starred on this show once, and I used to be fucking obsessed with him too. He IS GORGEOUS. You must admit.)
Family Ties
Titanic (3rd grade. Parents wouldn't let me see it acuz there was sex. But after about 2 months of whining they gave in :-p)
Felix The Cat: The Movie

Jonathan Taylor Thomas
Home Improvement
Tom and Huck

My Brother and Me
Kenan and Kel (Who loves orange soda? KEL LOVES ORANGE SODA!)
Hanson (HAHAHA, went to their concert when I was 9 or so. Fell asleep...)
Inspector Gadget (doot doot doot doot doot dee doot "WHOOHOO")
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (DUDE! PIZZA!)

Power Rangers
Hot Wheels
Creepy Crawlers
Easy Bake Oven (had one of these too! so much fun!)
Flower Making Kits

Playdough McDonald's Sets (had these too)
Rainbow Fish
(Pretty scales!)
If You Give A Mouse A Cookie (OH MY GOD!!!!! <333)
Bailey School Kids (FUCKING LOVED those books too!)

Wayside School
Mrs. Piggle Wiggle (YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVED LOVED LOVEDDDD THIS SHOW MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!)
Boxcar Kids
Ramona Quimby (vaguely...)
Amber Brown (is not a crayon!)
Roald Dahl
Allegra's Window (vaguely...)



I wish I was a kid again. ::sigh::

Tuesday, October 26th, 2004

(3    songssing)

Time:9:17 pm.
OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS FUCKING HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Digestive System: A Poem by my Mom

With your teeth, chew chew chew the food you eat...it's what they do.
Swallowing then will make food thus go down your esophagus.
Even if this may sound funny,
The food is now in your tummy.
In the stomach, your food will churn,
Then it's the small intestine's turn.
Gallbladder and pancreas lend some juice,
Putting food's nutrients to good use.
When there is nothing left but waste,
the intestines get rid of this in haste.
Two types of waste are all that matter,
The first is liquid and is held in your bladder.
Second is solid and surely it's famous,

Since this is the stuff that leaves through your anus.


My mom is THE GREATEST!!! :-p

Wednesday, October 13th, 2004

(4    songssing)

Subject:"Mixed two worlds and now you're gray" (edited from yesterday)
Time:10:25 pm.
Mood: blank.

Hey all. Back from the deep South!

The Methodist Mass was SOOO funny. The baby was baptised...blah blah blah. But the hilarious part was the sermon. It was ALL ABOUT TITHING!!! Yes, that's right kids, tithing. The minister goes, "In the bible it says God wants us to tithe. It's a form of worship, really! So please give us 10% of your income each week. God wants you to!!!!!!!!!" And they gathered the little kids up on the HUGE altar and told them all to give the church some of their meager weekly allowance.

Wow, was that funny. The church is just one big freakin' mendicant.


Okay. But other than that, I had a pretty good weekend.

School was soooo boring today. I can't believe I actually had the energy to get up and the strength to lift my feet up all those stairs. ::sigh:: And tomorrow we have that NEDT test! Woohoo...

Have some homeowork to do.

But here's some pictures I took...OF MYSELF!!! YAY!!! LOL. I'm so VAIN.


you're sooooooooooo vain!Collapse )

Saturday, October 9th, 2004

(5    songssing)

Time:10:17 am.
Mood: drained.
Well..here I am in Alabama. Not much to do. I have a French test and a Music test on Tuesday. Probably should study for those. Or I could read. But I've only been doing that for the last day and a half.

Emma is so adorable! What a lil cutie. I held her and gave her her bottle for a while, until she started getting gassy. Then I handed her off to my dear mother. Hahahahaha.

Had a bagel for breakfast. It was yummy.

The flight to Alabama last night was HELL. 2 1/2 hours...::sigh:: I slept for a little bit, read, listened to some music. Not much to do when you're trapped on an airplane.

Missed the second Presidential debate last night, which also made me sad. I wanted to watch those two idiots argue about nothing! :(

When we finally got to my uncle's ***mansion***, I plopped down on the nearest couch and just passed out. So very tired. The fatigue took over.

Uh-oh. I can hear the baby crying downstairs! ::covers ears::

I'm not sure what we're gonna do tonight. I think we're going out to eat or something. I dunno...

Tomorrow is the Baptism. (Another one lost...)

I'm sure I'll be taking lots of pictures. Maybe I'll post 'em.

Of course you can all tell that I'm still uber tired. Well you can thank Jacob for that. He came into my room this morning and started doing his oh-so-cool Spiderman stunts. I told him to get the hell out, that I was tired. But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. He doesn't listen. I pity Diona and Don, I really do.

I guess I'll go find something interesting to do. Ciao, young children.

-Maggie *)O(*

Sunday, October 3rd, 2004


Subject:"Oh simple thing...where have you gone?"
Time:6:24 pm.
Mood: confused.

Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

This song pretty much describes how I'm feeling right now.


....Have you ever thought everything you once believed to be true was wrong?

Sunday, September 26th, 2004

(3    songssing)

Time:1:19 pm.
I wanna make a new journal layout, but I have school work to do.



Ah, fuck it. I'm gonna fix my LJ. Soon it'll look good...I promise...


Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004

(1    songssing)

Subject:"Life is unfair"
Time:5:58 pm.
Mood: numb.
Yesterday was pretty good. I came home from school with Kathy, and we did our homework while talking about, er...lovely...things (SCRATCH, SNIFF, AND FEEL!!! LOL!). Afterwards we decided to go *BOTHER BOTHER* Sarah, so we walked over there and hung out with her for a while. The funniest thing about our visit was when Sarah discovered she had completely killed the pasta salad. She washed off all the seasoning, thus creating...well, pasta with some cheese on it. hahahahaahahhahaa. Go SARSE! That sounds like something I'd do, also. Heh.

Then I went to the mall with Kath. Went into Hot Topic, cuz she wanted to buy a TBS shirt, but she ended up buying a Senses Fail shirt instead. I bought some cool and happening black flower clips for my hair. I figure I can use them on Halloween when I go uber goth. :-p Ate some Taco Bell (I must say, it was rather tasty) and went home.

Another hellish day of school went by, and before I knew it I was home swamped with a massive amount of homework. I'm almost done. I should be typing my French homework, but I decided to come talk to you children who don't even care..:)

I have a Global project due in two weeks on the Cave of Lascaux. Whoopee.

Gotta go and do other school oriented things. Au Revior!

Monday, September 20th, 2004


Time:5:03 pm.
God dammit.

Sunday, September 19th, 2004


Time:1:22 pm.
Going to Long Beach w/ Lisa and her cronies today. Should be..eventful. heh. Ciao darlings.

Saturday, September 18th, 2004


Time:10:47 am.
Mood: confused.
I'm so confused. I don't know about you at all, yet I see the good in you...the potential you have. I can't seem to find out how I feel about you, but then again...

Hmm...decisions decisions.

Tuesday, September 14th, 2004

(2    songssing)

Time:8:45 pm.
Mood: busy.
A quick update on my life thus far...

High school= DEATH. My shoulders are about to fall off, my back is about to crack in half, and my brain is gonna explode soon. The work just KEEPS COMING!!! God.

Social life? Almost nonexistent.

Johnny Depp...Yes please.


And this'll probably be the only update this week. I'm gonna die before I get to a computer. So...Au Revior.

Saturday, September 11th, 2004

(6    songssing)

Time:3:56 pm.
Mood: groggy.
So yesterday was my *real* first day of high school, and wow was it hectic. I was running all the way up to the fourth floor for one period and down to the basement for the next. It was crazy! Luckily, it helps me to keep in shape. :-p

After school, Kathy came over and we walked to Sarah's house. Birnaum, Nadia, and Tom came over and we all had a fab time. A little later me and Kath left to go eat some spaghetti (which was, in fact, yummy, btw). Stupidly I left my cell phone at home and when I picked it up realized that Justine had called me like 4 times (I'm so sorry about that, hun!!!!). So I called her back ASAP. Instead of going back to Sarah's like we had originally planned, I ditched them and hung out with Justine. We dropped Kathy back off at Sarse's and then went to Justine's. We walked to *insert destination here* and chatted about life. It was fun! :) Then we walked back to my house and decided upon going to Starbucks, for we were both extremely tired and needed a little energy boost. We sat on the curb chatting about random topics until my fatherly figure came to pick us up. It was a fun fun fun night. Hopefully Justine and I can go to the mall tomorrow like we wanted to. So yes, I'm looking forward to that!

I have nothing to do today. I am sooo bored. BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED. Unfortunately Justine's at work, Katherine ran off to the mall (and my mom STILL hasn't come back yet!!!), Lisa's hanging out with her Long Beach crew, and Michelle isn't picking up her phone. So here I am with nothing to do. :(

My mom should be back soon with a Johnny Depp movie. I swear, he's the only thing that's keeping me sane. <333 Much love to my Johnnay. Maybe I'll practice my geetar in the meantime. Ciao.

Wednesday, September 8th, 2004

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Subject:School. yucky.
Time:8:26 pm.
Mood: distressed.
I've been writing my name over and over and labeling books and putting together folders and looseleaf sections and getting together my supplies and graph paper and pencils and pens. Ugg. Already school is beginning to piss me off. And now that I'm in high school, I've finally come to the harsh realization that I'm ACTUALLY going to have to do some WORK!!! EWWW!!! ::gags:: I've gotten so used to being in OLP and just breezing by without even trying that it's gonna be a huge change.

So tomorrow's Senior-Freshman Day. I saw Justine in my homeroom, and I tried to wave her down, but she didn't see me!!! AHH! Hopefully I'll get to talk to her tomorrow. I haven't seen her in a really long time. In fact, I think it's been over a year. Hmmm.

I'm gonna go watch TV. Write more later. Ciao.

Tuesday, September 7th, 2004

(4    songssing)

Time:5:34 pm.
Mood: crappy.


I DID!!!

I DID!!!



Now I can actually read some decent books!!!!!! ::cheers::

Tomorrow begins high school. Whoopee. I really don't feel like taking any tests now...BLAH. I'm very bored. No one has been joining my community, and that makes me sad. :( Maybe I'll go edit some pictures or something. Ciao quanto adesso (haahahahahah, don't you just love my horrible Italian?)

Monday, September 6th, 2004


Time:11:05 pm.
Had a good day. To make this short and sweet, I went to the mall with Lisa, Alex, Nicole, and Matt. It was pretty fun, but I was tired so I wasn't really that hyper :(

I must shower and watch Johnny Depp. Farewell.

Buon notte

Sunday, September 5th, 2004

(5    songssing)

Time:12:15 am.
Mood: chipper.


We all live in a Yellow Submarine.

Did you know?

Friday, September 3rd, 2004

(1    songssing)

Subject:A Very Merry UnBirthday To Layla!
Time:3:54 pm.

I'm going to the Hampton's for tonight. Should be fun..

Oh, and another thing.

EVERYONE SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LAYLA!!! She turned 3 today! :) lol, what an old kittie I have.


**Birthday Tribute**


 (hahahah, she doesn't like pictures much :-p


I think I love my cat too much.

Thursday, September 2nd, 2004

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Subject:Oh my Goddess you guys, I WENT TO HIGH SCHOOL!
Time:9:49 pm.
Mood: chipper.


Actually, it was really fun! I already memorized the school song!

O, king of hearts, we proudly pledge to thee
Strong faith and hope, eternal loyalty
Through thee our minds seek truth, our wills choose good
Clear has thou stressed a valiant womanhood
One with Alma Mater, we hail our patron king
With banner red and gold, thy praises now we sing
Although our paths lead far or near
One melody through all the years
In vibrant tones reechoes clear...


lol, I'm such a loser, I know. But now I have SCHOOL SPIRIT!!! WOOHOO!!! GO SHA!!!

Okay, so I'll give ya a rough outline of the two days.

Day 1- Lectures in the theatre...We seperated into our homerooms, got our lockers/locks. Then they made us be social and talk to each other by giving out these sheets that we had to fill out about everyone's interests. Surprisingly, that was fun too! Then we ate some yummy lunch and went home.

Day 2- Another lecture, but this time it was fun. They had this woman come in and they passed out these books and we filled them out by doing fun activities! YaY! lol. She told us that OUR FUTURE STARTS NOW!!! and we gotta do well in school, or else we're screwed for life. Hahaha. Then we went back to our homerooms, and Mrs. Farraro (my new homeroom teacher!) showed us how to read our confusing schedules. Afterwards we did a scavenger hunt around the building to get to know where all the classrooms are and whatnot. That was funnerific.

Alright, so it sounds pretty gay, but it was awesome! I love SHA! hahahahahahaha! :)

Today was boring. I wanna go back to school :(

Monday, August 30th, 2004

(1    songssing)

Subject:High school? NAH!
Time:8:03 pm.
Mood: happy.
Today was cool. Woke up early, went shopping for some *high school* supplies, then came home, ate some lunch. Kathy called, and she came over and we went to the bowling alley! Yay! It was fun fun fun. I lost so badly, though. I'm not very athletic. lol.

We took A TON of pictures with the digital camera! I'll post them later when the battery is fully charged. We also played GIRL TALK! Hooray! heh. Katherine found it in the porch, and we decided to take a trip down memory lane. Good times, good times. After that we ate some yummy pasta and watched The Simpsons!

Wow, I'm so happy right now. I have no idea why, either. I really should be depressed, because tomorrow morning I have to go to HIGH SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! E-GADS!!!!!!!!! DON'T MAKE ME GO!!!!! I'm scared, really. Geez, it's gonna be so weird. HIGH SCHOOL. Just thinking about ME in HIGH SCHOOL makes my brain hurt.

Alright, well...I guess I'm done with my rant. I'll update tomorrow and tell you all about orientation...


Saturday, August 28th, 2004

(3    songssing)

Subject:Home sweet home!
Time:6:26 pm.
Mood: excited.
I'm back everyone!!!


Hah. Well, I was in New Jersey with my dear friend Michelle! The trip was pretty darn fun. To sum it all up, we swam, chatted about some random topics, and saw one hott chunk of manley-ness (AKA Connor...)!!!! So it was sweeeeeeet.

But now I'm home again. And in 2 days...

I have to go to HIGH SCHOOL!!!!


I don't wanna go. Kill me, please. Thank you kindly.

Hmm...well now I'm making some banners for a few of the many communities I'm in, including my own. I think I'll go do that. Just wanted to inform everyone I was back...Ciao.

Monday, August 23rd, 2004

(2    songssing)

Time:7:34 pm.
Sorrow Star

The stars tonight shine so brightly before us
Take my hand, let us dance!
A midnight kiss for you, my love
Is this really happening?
So ethereal is your touch
I knew you always loved me!
A new moon is dawning for us
For our love!

And yet...

I see just a trace of sorrow in your eyes...


Opinions? Sorry if it sucks, I haven't written a poem in a LONG LONG time.

Sunday, August 22nd, 2004


Subject:A love we once knew has been shattered..
Time:12:31 am.
Mood: melancholy.
You know what really sucks? Divorce. It seems like all the married couples are getting it nowadays. I already know of two couples in my family...My Aunt Patti and Uncle Ed (located in Colorado), and my Aunt RE and Uncle Jim (Stonybrook). Aunt Patti's been drinking heavily because of the whole thing, and my mom's been giving her pep-talks over the phone (she's been calling our house constantly). And wow. My Aunt RE and Uncle Jim. I never thought THEY'D EVER get a divorce. But my aunt moved out of the house today...my dad went to Stonybrook to help with the heavy lifting. I think the divorce between them is okay, though. Both their kids went off to college, so it's not they they need to stay together for their sake. So if they're really that unhappy with their marriage, then w/e...But my Aunt Patti and Uncle Ed...that's a different story. You see, Patti's not REALLY my aunt, but I just refer to her as such because she and my mom have been best friends since...well, forever. I've never met this Ed guy, but from what I've heard, he's a fat slob who's emotionally abusive and doesn't do shit for anyone but himself. But Patti seems to really love him. She's just confused right now.

I don't know. It's not that any of these splits affect me, but I just think it's horrible the way love is turning into hatred all of a sudden. It kind of makes you think about life...how love might not REALLY exist-only infactuation. But I pray there's still a glimmer of hope for me in that area. I pray that love does exist.

Okay, done.

-Maggie <333

Saturday, August 21st, 2004

(5    songssing)

Time:3:04 pm.
Mood: happy.




(1    songssing)

Time:12:02 am.
I had an awful day. Don't even fucking ask...

Thursday, August 19th, 2004


Subject:Tra la la.
Time:2:30 pm.
Mood: calm.
So yesterday was good. Went to art class (w/o Michelle...she slept instead, lol), came home, then just did nothing until Michelle called and took me out of my misery. I went to her house and we played Barbie Explorer!!! ( "Oh look, an ELEPHANT!" *BANG* Hah! ) That was fun fun fun. Then we make a very unhealthy decision and went to McDonalds. Yuck. Now I gotta exercise and work that off. Ugg.. Afterwards we came home and she showed me how to make my LJ pretty, so now I can do it all by myself!!! ::grins:: Everyone like the new layout? WOOT! I do. :D

Today...uhh...Lisa called this morning, she's back from camp! Yay! We're gonna chyll tomorrow. And...today I think I'll just exercise and bathe and read. Yep. That's my life in a nutshell.

Ciao, darlings.

Wednesday, August 18th, 2004

(6    songssing)

Time:2:51 pm.
Mood: drained.
I wish everything could stay the same..

Monday, August 16th, 2004

(4    songssing)

Time:10:39 pm.
It's THE PRESIDENTAL ELECTION 2004!!! Who will take home the win?!?!?!?!!?


Sunday, August 15th, 2004

(1    songssing)

Time:12:17 am.
Mood: bored.

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Saturday, August 14th, 2004

(1    songssing)

Subject:"You know I love you so..."
Time:9:14 pm.
Mood: pessimistic.
My uncle arrived from Alabama today. It's so strange. I would have never pictured him as a father. Deanna had the baby about 2-3 weeks ago, and they named her Emma. She's cute, from the photos I've seen. The christining's probably going to be at the end of September, so I'll get to see her then. Wow, she's one lucky little kid. Gets to live in a mansion and is probably going to be spoiled beyond comprehension. So weird. He is not the "father" type. He's not very responsible (he left Deanna alone on her due date to go on his boat at the LAKE), and...I don't know. It's just odd, that's all..

Let's see. Today was pretty uneventful. (But then again, my whole summer has been that way). I have been extremely tired lately. Maybe I'm sick or something. I don't know. I finished reading "A Tree Grows In Brooklyn." The ending wasn't horrible, but I wasn't terribly impressed either. Now I'm on to "And Then There Were None." The other Agatha Christie book they made us read in school (Murder On the Orient Express) sucked majorly. Hopefully this one will be a bit better.


I need a boyfriend desperately. In addition to my headaches, I'm lonely. God dammit. My life just sucks when it comes to guys. Sigh.

And that's it. Sorry if I bored anyone, but things haven't been too interesting for me..

Friday, August 13th, 2004

(1    songssing)

Time:9:09 pm.
So tired. Ya know what, though? I think I'm gonna make a Xanga. Maybe I'll like them better than livejournals. Hmmm...I'll go do that now. Bye.

Thursday, August 12th, 2004


Time:10:48 pm.


Come on everyone, join, join, join!!!!

Monday, August 9th, 2004

(10    songssing)

Subject:WaRpEd ReViEw!!!
Time:5:44 pm.
Mood: lazy.
Okay, so now that I've got my community out in the open, I expect everyone to join! Well at least a few people...I know not many people read my LJ, but still! If you do happen to see that post, just join because I need members!!! :) It is appreciated!

So let me tell you all about the Warped Tour!

We got there around 1:30 or so. We checked the big board of bands and Kathy wrote down the music schedule on her arm (lol). We have pictures too, and I'll post them when Shelly gets 'em developed. I think New Found Glory was the first band we really stayed the whole time for...Even though we don't like them, we stuck around to watch. We were on the side but then we kind of were pushed towards the center-ish. We were hit with flying water/Pepsi bottles and dirty jackets and other articles of clothing. People were also throwing beach balls and condoms and Slim Jims around, but of course we couldn't get any of those...we had to get the nasty things! We were all "packed in there like SARDINES!" hee hee. There was this dude standing behind me holding a plate of nachos over my head, so I turned around and gave him a look and he said, "Don't worry, I won't drop any cheese on your head!" and we laughed. By the time that all ended we smelled like other people's sweat and it was pretty disgusting. Katherine wanted to go see Taking Back Sunday, but me and Shelly were tired and had headaches so we stayed out while Kathy went moshing! Woohoo! When she came out, her face was all red and her hair was really messed up and it was just plain funny. Hah.

So after that we went to a Yellowcard autograph signing. The line was sooooo freaking long and we got there late so we were in the back. And the most annoying part was that people kept choosing the space in front of us as a walkway, so they just kept going back and forth and back and forth and back and forth all the freaking day long! It drove us insane. Finally after standing there for an hour (and only moving about 3 inches forward), Katherine said, "Okay, I'm gonna go see if we can cut the line" so a few minutes later we walked up to where Katherine was and slowly merged into the line. Lol...So rebellious are we. Anyway, we got up there and were handed free posters for the band to sign. Most of the band members completely ignored our presence, except for the bassist. He smiled at me and said, "Hi! How are you?" and that made me happy. And the lead singer/guitarist Ryan smiled and said, "Thank you!" He's much better-looking in person, I must say. Maybe he's just photographically challenged..hah.

And Katherine gave Ryan her pink fuzzy pen! She goes up to him and holds it out and says, "This is for you!" and he's all, "Oh, for me? Cool, thanks!" (Katherine ran away in panic, lol) And after she left he took the pen and was all, "I love pink!" and rubbed it in the other guitarists face. Kathy was very very happy after that. =)

So yes, that was very cool. I had stopped liking Yellowcard for a while, but now I like them again! ("I mean...no! Yellowcard sucks! They are bad!")

After that Katherine bought 2 TBS shirts and then we went to get some food...ate on the dusty ground...listened to some roaring emo band...Then we had about 3 hours to wait until Yellowcard came on, so we decided to sit down in a quiet (well, more quiet than others)and grassy area to help pass the time. Then there was this little stage where some "smaller" bands played, and we went to watch them. First on was a band called Harpo ::points at head:: and then we watched a band called Much The Same. They were both very good, I must admit.

Then it was time for Yellowcard's performance! Yay! But Mr. & Mrs. McGeary wouldn't let us mosh because they didn't wanna get seperated, so they let us walk up a few feet in front of them while they stared us down the whole time. There was this comely guy standing in front of me and he started talking to me about how much it smelled, but then the music started going and our convo ended :(

Yellowcard was really awesomeful! And they wrote this song about 9/11, and beforehand they went off on a ramble about how much they hate Bush (well, at least we have similar political views!) and Ryan said, "Get off your asses and vote!" and it was fun fun fun. I jumped up and down and it was cooooooooolllllll!

Then the concert ended :( :( :( We went to some restaurant to have dinner and then I went home and just collapsed on my bed of fatigue.

Yesterday I basically sat around...I had a concert hangover. lol. Then today I went to the dentist and got my teeth cleaned. No cavities, either!!! Go me! And afterwards we went to the library and I got the 9th Sweep book (:D). I told myself, "Screw required reading!" and got it anyway. And thenI came home and ate some lunch...

That's it. Bored...I think I'll go read! Ciao!

(1    songssing)

Subject:Join my community! Please? Please!!!
Time:5:32 pm.

Hee hee hee hee hee! Please join my JOHNNY DEPP community! Come on...you know you want to!!! I mean...it's Johnny Depp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please? Please...?


Friday, August 6th, 2004

(2    songssing)

Subject:"We're painting the (roses) ::hair:: red! We're painting the (roses) ::hair:: red!"
Time:10:26 pm.
Mood: crazy.
Today was awesome! I went to art class with Shelly and then we ran off to the little diner (the ORIGINAL one) in Malverne to eat food (and get fat). So then Kathay called and she was all "Do you wanna chyll foh lyfe-a?!?!?" And I was all "Lyke, TOTALLY!" So we drove to VS to pick her up and then my mother figure dropped us off my Philip's Plaza, where we proceeded into Sally Beauty Supply to buy some hair dye! (You see, we're going to the Vans Warped Tour tomorrow, and I wanted to dress all nifty and whatnot, so I decided to dye my hair to be hip! hah). So I bought some red hair spray dye stuff and then we went into Starbucks, bought some coffee, and walked across the street to the library. I read the end of the 6th Sweep book (b/c I had forgotten my library card...::blushes::). We sat in the "Quiet Room!" and read magazines and books for a while until finally the place closed for the day. lol. Then we walked back to my house and hung out in my room for a while watching Curb Your Enthusiasm (BECAUSE HER DOLL JUDY HAS BE DECAPITAYTED!!!!!!!!!). Afterwards we ate some dinner and then said, "OMG, let's go dye our hair now!" I was the first victim, of course. I only dyed two strands, so I have specialful read streaks! I love 'em. They make me feel rebellious. Hah hah.. It was great, though. They put all this tinfoil in my hair and were wearing latex gloves, so it made it seem like I was going into surgery or something ("A Guide To Open Heart Surgery For Beginners!!!!" LOL! And it all took place in the bathroom, too). After my hair was done, me and Michelle did Katherine's! So now hers looks all cool too! Michelle didn't wanna dye her hair, but that's okay, because she's still special anyway.

So um...then after we finished with our rebellious hair-dying raid, we played cards!!! Hee hee. Katherine kinda cheated Shelly out of a win during Spit, but oh well. I was SOOO close to winning, but she beat me too! :( Heh. She is the "SPIT MASSSSTUUUURRRR!!!!!" HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!

Speaking of which, I bought the Wishmaster CD a few days ago! WOOHOO! It's not the one I had my heart set on...I really wanted Oceanborn, but you have to place a special order for that or something. So THE WEEESHHHHMASSSTTTUUUUURRRR will have to hold me over until I convince my mom to buy the other CD for me.

All in all, it was a wonderful day! I had loads 'o' fun! =-) Can't wait 'till the concert tomorrow. Even though I don't like that kind of punk-ish music, it's still fun to hang out and listen to a bunch of bands play. I don't really care if they suck. lol. Write about our Warped experience tomorrow!

*Buon notte*

Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004


Subject:"We're walking in the air!"
Time:4:26 pm.
Mood: thirsty.
What is today's date? Because quick frankly, I've lost all sense of time as we know it. ::scrolls up:: August 3rd...okay...

::yawn:: So tired. Wow, I really must get out of the house. Tomorrow maybe Shelly and I will call a cab company or something and get our asses over to the mall...because I am in desperate need of a NIGHTWISH CD. :) They rule. I *heart* them. But for now, all I have are my downloaded Kazaa songs. Ho hum.

I was up until 3:30 last night in my room, reading. First I brainwashed myself to continue reading "A Tree Grows In Brooklyn" (required reading...blah), but it was soooo freaking boring...Until ***major plot point*** happened. Heh. (Don't wanna spoil it for the rest of you children who have to read it sometime this month..) So I read a few more chapters after that. Then when nothing interesting happened (again!), I put that down and started reading one of my Sweep books. Yay. They are most Wiccan and they make me very happy. :-D. I finished that...It was the 7th book (I had skipped reading the 6th one-it's a series, hope you can tell), so I wanted to go to the library today and get it so I could fully understand what was happening...But then my mom started yelling at me because she claimed that I had brought down a Blockbuster tape down late, and "NOW IT'S OVER-DUE!" Even though I had brought it downstairs yesterday morning, but no one seems to care about my side of the story. And she's still pissed off at me.

Bored...So very bored...I'm sick and tired of the same scenery day after day after day...I wish I actually had money, then I could take a train somewhere...Maybe to the city for a day or two! Oh well. I guess my room is my only sanctuary, for now...

God, I really wish I could WALK IN THE AIR!!!! THEN I COULD WALK AWAY, AWAY, AWAY!!!!!

Buon oggi! ...::smirk::

Saturday, July 31st, 2004

(7    songssing)

Subject:"There's still no one home.."
Time:2:12 pm.
Mood: lonely.
Everyone like my new journal layout? Then you should say thank you to Michelle! "Thank you, Michelle!" Heh. Okay. Well last night I suddenly had this overwhelming feeling of lonliness. It was very odd. Like I was trapped in my own little bubble for my entire life...I kept wondering whether it was because I didn't have a guy or for other reasons. Whatever the case was, tea made it all better. I was going to start yelling because we ran out of Prince of Wales tea, but then I calmed myself down and made Irish Breakfast tea instead. Hmm...so that was interesting...Must be those damned hormones again...hah.

Woke up today at 1...Had some cereal...blah blah blah, typical Saturday alone. I wonder what I should do to keep myself occupied today? Should I read one of those oh-so-exciting required books? Or should I sleep? Or play video games?!?!?! Choices, choices, choices! Anyway, I still feel lonely, so someone make me feel better...

Thursday, July 29th, 2004

(1    songssing)

Subject:WEEE More stolen quizzes!
Time:10:19 pm.
Ultimate Opposite Sex Survey (for girls)
--Your Favorite--
Hair Color:: brown/black, but IDC
Eye Color:: I prefer green, but blue can be really hott too.
(Their)Music Genre Preference:: Rock/Rap (just as long as he's not a wigga...)
Height(estimate):: Taller than me, same height, but just not a midget
Age:: 15/16/17...........41! Heh....
Personality Type:: Sense of humor, understands me, nice, lovey-dovey when I wanna be, romantic
--This or That--
Older or Younger:: Older
Romantic or Horndog:: Romantic
Smart or Stupid:: Smart
Fat or Skinny:: In between
Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular:: Skinny but muscular
Punk or Preppy:: Maybe a bit of both
The Big Picture or the Little Things:: Little things
Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present:: Flowers
Mixtape or Burned CD:: Mixtape
Love or Lust:: Love
Emotional or Just Not:: Emo!
Sincere or Jokester:: A little bit of both
Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet:: Ugly and sweet
Sexy or Just "cute":: A bit of both
Arse or Abs:: ARSE, most definitely!
Hair or Hands:: hair
Dimples or Eyes:: EYES!!
Biceps or Calves/Thighs:: Biceps
Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd):: Teeth (to make up for my bad 1s...hah)
Clean Shaven or Scruffy:: whatever one looks better on him...
Rugged or Prim and Proper:: In between
Countryboy or Cityboy: City boy
Date alone or With Friends: Alone
Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause:: Not too much of one or the other...in between

--Have You Ever--
Dumped a guy because he liked you too much:: No
Loved a guy because he stalked you:: No
Loved a guy because he hated you:: Sadly, yes
Asked your friend's crush out:: Nope
Lead a guy on for kicks:: ....=)
Asked a guy out purely because he was hott:: No
Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend:: Yep
Lied about not having a boyfriend:: Nope
Lied about having one:: Once. heh
Cheated:: No
Been Cheated on:: No
Had a crush on a gay guy:: No
--Their Clothing(yes/no)--

Boxers?:: Yes
Briefs?:: No
Hat?:: Yes
Skater Shoes?:: Maybe
Pimp Shoes?:: No
Band Shirts?:: Yes, if they're good bands
Vintage shirts?:: Yes
Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?:: Nah
Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?:: No
Independent/DC?:: Yes
Skavenger/UGP?:: idk
Fox/Thor?:: ...?
Jeans or Shorts?:: Jeans

--Be Honest--
Would you ever date a guy for his money?:: No
Would you ever date a guy for his social status?:: No
Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?:: No
Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better?: ...yes....
Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?:: No
Do looks matter?:: I'd like to say I'm not shallow, but hey, they do (I blame society)...but looks aren't everything.
Are you honestly scared of being dumped?:: Scared? No. Pissed? Yes.
Does size matter?:: Hee hee hee No
Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?:: Sometimes yes
Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?:: I don't have any
Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be):: lol uhhh...yeah?
Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?:: Of course. I'm full of secrets.
Do you lie about masturbation for attention or false innocence?:: No
Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?:: No, I'd rather him slap my butt. Heh
Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?:: No
Wanna be a virgin till marriage?: Maybe...we'll see how it goes...
Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it?: I've never said it to anyone before.
Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?:: All the time!
Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?:: Might
Does this survey suck nuts?:: Nope it was fun.

(1    songssing)

Subject:Quiz stolen from Shelly
Time:10:10 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
01. I have kissed someone of the same sex on the lips.
02. I see a therapist. (i stopped though)
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness. (soemtimes?)
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
****07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
*08. I love to write, even though I think I suck at it.
****09. I can't live without lipgloss. =-p
*10. I'm probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
****12. I spend money I have. (I spend all my money, that's why I'm always broke)
**13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags.
*15. I've had a concussion before.
***16. I'm not good with confrontation.
***17. I loved the Backstreet Boys.
*18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi. (I wouldn't say ADDICTED...)
20. I've tried writing poetry before but it sucked.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
*22. I'm not a fan of rap.
**23. I love taking pictures.
*24. I hate girls who are fake.
**25. I can be mean when I want to.
****26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child.
***30. I dress how I feel that day.
*31. My room is painted a color other than white.
32. I cry very easily.
33. I'm always early.
34. I barely ever study for tests.
35. My birthday is my favorite holiday.
**36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I am a morning person.
**38. I wish I was smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
**40. I don't blame gay people for being gay, its not like they have a choice. thats worded really badly. disregard it.
**41. No one really knows me.
42. I don't have many bad hair days.
*43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
***44. I am passionate about my interests.
*45. I have had the chicken pox.
****46. I'm a hopeless romantic.
*47. I feel empty sometimes. tears.
48. I am/was clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am no longer depressed because of medication.
*50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
**52. I can be very insecure.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken. (I'm extrememly loud! heh)
*54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love the color yellow. (hmm, it's okay)
****56. I love guys that play the guitar. (YAY)
57. I state the obvious. (occasionally)
58. I'm a moody person.
**59. I have a low self-confidence.
*60. I've contemplated suicide. (once, but then I realized I was just being stupid)
61. I hate cleaning my room.
***62. I tend to get jealous.
*63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer. (he's cool.)
**65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.(kind of depends...)
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat meat.
67. I've had a crush on a teacher before.
*68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
*71. I'm happy with my life most of the time.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years.
73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend.
*74. I love kisses on the forehead.
*75. I love the color blue.
*76. I don't sew. though i've tried.
***77. I am not addicted to drugs. (drugs are bad, mmmkay?)
78. I wear contacts.
**79. I don't really care about politics.
*80. I hate Bush, but I have reasons to justify it. (Go KERRY!)
*81. I don't take criticism well.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. I looooooove Colin Farrell.
***84. Rocker boys/chicks turn me on.
**85. I love my family SOMETIMES.
86. I don't mind getting shots. (ah! needles!)
*87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the guitar. (I can already, 'cause I'm cool like that)
**89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I'm probably going to have premarital sex.
**91. I don't like my nose.
*92. I am very religious.
**93. I still act like a little kid.
** 94. I am ridiculously indecisive.
**95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife.
******96. I love music.
97. I'm in love.
**98. I have problems letting go of people.
99. Ashlee Simpson is awesome. (hmm, she's okay)
100. I don't really like ice cream (who doesn't like ice cream?!?!)


Sorry, had to give in to the conformity! :) Umm...well today was completely dedicated to Wicca! Hooray! I ran aorund blessing everything, and I must say it was a good time. (Heh, I'm such a dorkwad). I wrote a little bit, had two cups of tea, and pretty much did nothing. I had the house all to myself, so I fell asleep for like an hour nd then let the rabbit out for a little exercise time. I'm telling ya, that bunny is out for my blood! He hates me soooo badly. Just a few minutes ago I came downstairs and my dad had cleaned the cage so Chester was out hopping around the porch again. I finally caught him and so I realized he was really scared so I was all, "Awww, it's okay, Mr. Bunny!" and I was petting him. He sniffed my arm and I thought he was gonna lick it but instead he bit me and tried to jump away! Luckily with my ultra-cool-fast reflexes I grabbed his butt and dragged him back into the cage. Kind of funny that he hates me so much, b/c Layla's my stalker! I'm gonna adopt lots of cats when I'm old and gray. Hah. Forget the rabbits, man...

My dad's watching this John Kerry speech. I'm trying to determine who I should side with. Bush is just an idiot, but Kerry doesn't look too bright himself. Oh well, screw politics. It's not like I can vote anyway. But if I could, I'd vote Kerry. At least he's better than Mr. I-Can't-Speak-Proper-English. Okay, done.

Hmmm...and that's my life. How's yours?

Friday, July 23rd, 2004

(5    songssing)

Subject:Concert review and some other boring stuff about my life.
Time:6:20 pm.
Mood: groggy.
Hey all. (Wow, I hate the summer...) Umm...oh yes, let me share with you the tale of last night!

The concert was awesome! My ears are still ringing. lol. We got to Jones Beach late and unfortunately missed Breaking Benjamin. :( But I felt all cool and special and stuff b/c we were unsupervised! =-p I think the security guards were suspicious as to whether we had snuck in or something, and they kept asking to see our tickets. Heh. We had kick-ass seats, too. Right in the center, but we weren't that close to the stage. We were on the floor, but far back. Ah well. Anyway, we missed the beginning of 3 Days Grace's songs becasue Meg and Kath had to pee. But we got back in time to hear "Just Like You"!!! Yay! I heart that song. Then Seether came on. My view on them is that they're kind of a rip off of Nirvana. The lead singer sounds just like Kurt Cobain. But they're still cool anyways. Also there was this black backdrop thing behind the band nd we were debating over what the blurry picture was in the middle. I finally figured out that it was a guy about to shoot himself in the head. (A bit suicidal there, don't you think?) So in the middle of their performance me and Shelly kept saying, "I wonder if they're gonna perform 'Broken'!" And they did and we were happy! :) Amy and that dude are cute together. Tee hee. So she left and Seether performed for a little while longer and then we waited about 1/2 an hour for Evanescence to come on. When they did we all started screaming our heads off! WEEE! Amy was in this awesome outfit and really wish I was her. Growl. Despite my initial thoughts about her singing live, she was really good! Growl again. In my opinion, the new guitarist is much better than Ben Moody. I think he'll be a good addition to the band. He has really cool hair as well. =) Ummm...so they played for about an hour or so. They even played a Korn song, which was a little odd, but that's okay, because Evanescence is cool and they can do that. So...yeah...And let's see...I'm pretty sure they performed a new version of "Lies," which is one of my favorite Evanescence songs. That was cool. Uhh...I bopped my head around the whole time! It was fun! Heh.

And so I've decided that my love for Evanescence has been renewed. Happiness.

I've got my guitar concert tomorrow night. I'm not sure what possessed me to sign up for that, but now there's nothing I can do about it. I'll just have to suck it up and play. (God dammit...)

And that's my life. The summer is sooo boring. I want to go to school. Never thought I'd say that, but it's true. I can feel my brain melting. Must...get...intelligence...!

I am tired...ZZZZZZZZZZ...I'm gonna go sleep.....night...


Monday, July 19th, 2004


Subject:Another day, another chore.
Time:6:46 pm.
Hmmm. Well, I am pleased to inform everyone that Haley has given up on her quest for a dog and has decided upon purchasing a cute lil bunny rabbit! We're gonna go buy it tonight...

And that's pretty much my life. Heh. I cleaned a bit today and played my guitar...uhhh...listened to some music...went on the computer...made a grilled-cheese sandwich (and burnt it lol)...read some of my required reading books (because I really haven't read any of them yet...-I'm gonna have a ton of work to do during August...)...and, uhh...yeah...

Boredom has taken over. And all I can think about is....*drool*


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I have a craving for some tea. Gonna go make some (the RIGHT way! heh...oh that Shelly!)


(3    songssing)

Subject:Me nd Michelle's Lacuna Coil Fan Fic! Read on! Funny stuff!
Time:1:47 am.
Mood: creative.
“It’s good to have you back, Signora Bella,” Said Tony Caputo, one of the most frequent visitors of La barra delle bevande, where Cristina worked whenever she visited her beloved Italy.

“Oh, Signore, its better to be back. You know, Marco and I are getting married soon,” The delicate maiden responded as she handed Tony his usual, a Margarita.

Tony took a sip and replied (without trying to sound too ecstatic), “That’s wonderful! Always knew you’d find someone, and Marco seems like a good man…”

“He’s great, honestly, I don’t know how he puts up with me, especially after that Andi incident… but we don’t live in the past.”

“’Scary shadows of your past are alive,’ eh?” he said, reciting a line from one of Lacuna’s infamous songs. Well, don’t let them get to you. Everyone’s gotten past all that now.”

“I know, but he’s never been unfaithful to me, ever, and its just so hard to move on, you know?”

“Cristina, don’t beat yourself up. Who in their right mind would be unfaithful to you? You must take that into consideration.”

“Oh Tony, please, I’m being serious here.”

“So am I!” he insisted. “A beautiful woman such as yourself could get any man she chose…But you’ve got the “pick of the litter” and if that doesn’t work out, I’m still here!”

“Tony!” She laughed and gave him a friendly kiss on the cheek with a punch in the arm.

“I’ve got to go see the wedding planner now. I’ll talk to you later.”

“You always say that, but we don’t talk for years. Don’t be a stranger.”

“I won’t.”

Marco took his fiancés hand as they strolled along the pristine gardens where the wedding would be held.

“And here are the fountains!” Ms. Russelli said, gesturing to their right. She sounds like a robot, he thought, gripping Cristina’s hand tighter.

“Oh Ms. Russelli, you’ve been so good to us, I don’t know if I can ask for any more!” Praised Cristina.

I hope she’s not thinking about running away with a WOMAN this time…he mumbled, thinking about the Andi incident. He had become very overprotective of her now, hardly letting her out of his sight. He wasn’t about to lose her again.

“What was that, Mi Amore?”

“Oh…um…Nothing Bella, just thinking to myself.”

“Right. Anxious about the wedding?”

“No, inamorata, you see, I have no qualms about you. I love you.”

“Oh Marco!”

Ms Russelli tried to interrupt the two before they became too lovie-dovie. “So, have you been researching any places for the reception?”

“Well, I thought maybe we could have it at home, since we just bought a new MANSION and all,” said Marco defensively.

Stop Marco! That last thought was just sarcastic, Cristina doesn’t go that way! Be nice… He continued to try to smooth things over in his mind.

“That would be lovely!” Cristina answered. “Yes…a quiet reception at home, with a few friends…”

Will Andi be there? Oh I’m sorry, He’s a LOVER, Marco bitterly said in his mind. No! Stop it, dammit! She loves you! And you love her.

“Marco, is something wrong? You’re twitching,” Cristina observed with concern.

“No, nothing Bella, just… I’m feeling unwell, can we speed this along?”

“Certainly…” Cristina responded, beginning to get annoyed with Marco’s possessive behavior.

“And even if I’m twitching, does it matter?”

“Well…yes…your squeezing my hand!”

For the next half hour, Ms. Russelli lectured them on the history of the wedding grounds, and Marco couldn’t keep himself from becoming trapped in a painful reverie.

“You bastard! Get out! Get out!”

“I’m sorry…I just…We were-“



Bits and pieces of “The Andi Incident” were coming back to him.

“Which would you like, Marco?”

“What?” he said, snapping back to reality.

“Pasta or vegetables as a side dish?” Cristina repeated, annoyed with her future husband.


“Of course and for the entree we have..” Ms. Russelli trailed on.

“Voi bastardi!!! Lo avete sparato!!! Denomino la polizia!!!!”

“You deserved it!”

“Li uccido!”

“Marco NO!”

“The entrée, MARCO!!! WHERE IS YOUR HEAD??” Cristina was really losing her temper.

“Umm..sorry…what were the choices again?”

“UGGH!!! Ms. Russelli, I’m so sorry! I’ll call you later about this! Very good of you to meet with us again.”

“No problem. Call anytime.”

Cristina grabbed Marco’s hand and dragged him home. At the house she unhanded him and threw him against the wall.

“Marco Coti Zelati! What is the MATTER with you??”

“Cristina, I’m sorry!”

She waited for an answer.

“I’ll make it up to you!” he said at last. “I’ll take you wherever you want to go! Your choice on everything, alright? I swear I’ll make it up to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”


That night, the couple went to Buon Alimento to dine-the place where they had met. When she first was introduced to Marco as a new bandmate by Andi. Andi and Marco had been best friends.

“Cristina, your eyes, they sparkle tonight.”

“Marco, thank you. But what’s been going on lately?”

“I don’t know… pre marital stress. That thing with Andrea…is that ever going to happen again?”
“Oh Marco! I love you more than life itself! I knew this was what was bothering you! I’m sorry it happened, but this doesn’t change how I feel about you. I love you. I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry too, Bella, it’s silly, I know, but I’m worried.”

“As you should be, Mi Amore, but its not going to happen ever again.”


“We’re entwined together, Love, this will never ever happen again. You have my word.” And she sealed the promise with a gentle kiss.

Marco smiled. “I have your heart too.”

“You most certainly do.” She smiled back.

“How about I have your heart at home? Say…over a few margaritas and well…”

“Oh!!! Excuse me waiter!!! Can we have this wrapped??”

At home, Cristina waited in her bed for Marco. He was…getting ready for a night of love. He’d never seen Cristina quite as how he would tonight. He walked into the room and Cristina patted the space in the bed next to her. He got in and they kissed lovingly. He felt Cristina and at that moment-


Cristina sighed as she broke away from her lover and picked up the phone. “Hello?”

“Cristina…” Andi’s voice rang in her ears. “How are you tonight?”

“Andi…This isn’t a good time.” She glanced over at Marco, only to find him glaring at the telephone with rage.

“I apologize… It’s just that I wanted to see you. Even to hear your voice fills me with joy.”

Cristina couldn’t bear to see Marco’s angry face any longer, and exited the room and into the bathroom.

“I’ve missed you, Cristina.” He sounded distant.

“And I you,” she said with regret. “But we can’t be talking now…I…I have to go…”

“Cristina! Wait, please!”

But she hung up the phone in desperation.

She walked back into the room.

“Okay, now where were we?”

“Nowhere, we were going no where and we never will, I can see!”


“No Cristina, I’ve waited long enough! 7 years, 7 years! And why? Because you hate commitment!”


“Wait, what?”

“You heard me, lets go!”


Marco picked up the phone and dialed what seemed to be endless numbers.

“Andi, meet me at Caputo’s. We need to talk.”

Marco and Tony met Andi in a dark alleyway in the bad neighborhoods of Milan.

“Ready Tony?”

“Yeah yeah yeah, you gotta threat for him, Mar?”

“Yes, I know what he values most, his own life. So I’ll threaten that.”


“Andi, so nice to see you again, my former bandmate. Why don’t you get in the car so we can… talk a little more.”

“I’m a big man, and if this is how it needs to happen, lets go…talk.”

“Well, hop in.”

Andi cautiously got into the black Mercedes and put on his seat belt. Marco turned on the air conditioning and closed the windows.

“Comfortable, Andrea?”

“Very, thank you for caring.”

Marco smiled deviously to himself and drove off.

“I’m glad.”

They entered an abandoned parking lot to the department store that had closed just hours earlier.

When they reached the place of…internment… Marco got out the car and pulled open the passengers side. He grabbed Andi by the hair.


“Yes, my friend. Your hairy head must go.”

He took out his knife from his pocket and shoved him against the car.

“You touch Cristina and I Keel you, you understand???” he yelled provoked while pulling the knife towards his neck.

“Marco, please!”

“No, I spare you your life , only your tresses must go now.”


“I knew it! It was the only thing Cristina like about you!” He yelled as he swiped the knife across his long hair.

“Marco, you are a smaller man for this!”

“Oh yeah, well I still have Cristina! And now, just tide me over to the wedding…”

He began as he pulled out his knife and shot him in the leg.

Andy yelped in pain.

“I CALL THE POLICE!” he yelled.

“No, that is where you are wrong. If you do, you will not get to see my trial. If you get anyone into this…the whole Zelati- Caputo Mafia will come after you and this is not what you want. You, my friend, if you tell any of this, will be dead.”

Andi gulped. Partly because of the threat and partly because of the shooting pain in his leg.

”I will obey, but you will see, come the day of your wedding, you will wish this never happened.”

“Well, we shall see. All of the Zelatis will see and the Caputos too. And guess who’s a Caputo? Big Al.”

Andi winced. “You are doing the wrong thing. But you will see and you will know!”

“Know what.”

“You will see.”

“Oh this is a waste of my time!” Marco yelled, shot Andi again, tore off his clothing and shoved him in the trunk angrily. He slammed the door on Andi’s screaming, hopped into the car and sped away, meeting Tony back at the Alley.

“Did what you needed to do?”

“Yes, thanks for the help.”

“No problem, us Zelatis and Caputos stick together.”

Andi struggled and pressed the safety feature that opens the trunk from the inside.

“Foolish Marco,” he said to himself. “I should think the mafia should have a less technologically advanced car.”

He limped to a salvation army and got a big black cloak, enough to cover his whole head and body. He walked for two days to get to the wedding chapel.

Cristina sat on a footstool in front of her mirror, smoothing out her silk white wedding dress. The day was finally upon them, and Cristina thought consistently about her love for Marco as she fastened a pearl necklace around her neck. You’re making the right choice. You love Marco. You really do. You love-


“Come in!” she called.

The door creaked open, revealing her worst fear…

“I had to see you, Cristina,” Andi said, limping towards her. “I can’t live without you! This is madness! How can you go through with this! You know what we have!” He was trembling beneath his big black cloak covering his body and head.

“I know not what you speak of, we have nothing.”

“Oh Cristina, don’t act like you don’t know. You love me. You love me more than Marco. You just don’t want to upset him.”


“What? I know what? I know none of those lies. I only know that you meant what you said. Marco is jealous. His whole family is after me-“


“See, Bella, you love me. You wouldn’t mind if I died if you didn’t care! You’re just scared that if you admit to your feelings, he’ll hurt you too!!!!!”

Cristina burst into tears, unable to contain her sorrow any more. “I CAN’T DO THIS! ANY OF THIS!!!!!!!! IT’S ALL A LIE!!!!”

“No, Cristina…HIS HEAVEN’S A LIE!!!!”

“Andi please!!!”

“No, I have waited long enough! At the wedding, all shall know The Secret.”

And with that, he limped out of the room as fast as his wounded knee would carry him.

Andi ran out the chapel, angry that Cristina was denying her feelings for him. Or maybe she was blind. Either way, he’d had it up to here. He went into a subway to catch a train to his favorite bar. But, just as he was wandering around the station, a deranged old man came up to him.

“I like your cloak. I like it a lot.”

“Yes…” Andi said nervously.

“Can I have it?”


“Well, I’ll just have to TAKE IT!” he yelled as he tore the flimsy cloak from his skin.

Andi was bare, and screamed like a girl! Not only was he exposed, but he had no hair!

Andi ran up the stairs from the old subway station and Ran through the streets of Milan.

A police officer stopped him.

“Where are your clothes young man?”

“I can explain, you see this mafia-“

”Save it for the judge!”

He slammed Andi into the car. And drove down to The Station.

Andi was fitted into a jail suit and thrown to the slammer.

Andi looked at his jail mates and said “We’re busting outta here!” Andi got a pin and picked the lock and off he was!

Cristina took her place in the room where the wedding would be held. A symbol from each album was in the ceremony. A vine from ‘In a Reverie’ was in the Aisle. The image from the Halflife EP cover was on the wall next to the Large Sun like shaped symbol from Unleashed Memories. Her veil was upon her face. She felt beautiful.

Marco was at the altar, tapping his foot nervously. He knew that his feelings for Cristina were real. More real than anything he’d ever felt. And he knew their life together would be wonderful.

When the organ began to play its wedding march, Cristina walked down the aisle with her father, holding her bouquet of sunflowers. She looked lovely. She met Marco at the altar and they gazed into each others eyes as the priest recited the vows.

“If anyone should object, please speak now or forever hold your peace!”

Just then the doors burst open only to reveal a battered Andrea Ferro.

“I OBJJJJEEEECCCCTTTT!!!” he shouted limping down the aisle to grab his beloved Cristina.

“ANDI, YOUR HAIR!” shouted the bride.



“I DO!”



He bowed his head, and began to tell the tale.

“Cristina, you loved me, and you knew it since that night in the dressing room. Marco ran in and shot me, but you still cared! I know you did! You were drunk, but I knew you told me the truth when you said you loved me and you only stayed with Marco because you were afraid of the Zelati-Caputo gang! But now, now, turn your pain in to truth! Take another chance to find another way to be! And TRY TO FREE IT!!!”

*Dun dun dun dun dun*

A concert broke out, and soon Lacuna Coil was playing!!!!

Then they snapped back to reality.

“Cristina! I love you! You know that!” pleaded Andi. “Please, realize this and take me with you!”

“No, Andi, I cannot, and I’d be a fool to listen.”

“Then, Cristina, I’ll tell the whole congregation the REST of the story!”


“The rest of the story? There’s more??” asked an angry Marco.

“Plenty more!”

“Oh please Andi!” cried Cristina. “This was all in the past!”

“Anyway, there’s so much more. After our New York concert in 2004, Cristina asked to talk to me. She told me how great my body splash smelled and I knew there was more. So much more. Talked to Cristina like I’d never talked to her before, sharing our wants for our lives and how much we felt for each other, and then she told me not to tell you because she was frightened of the Zelati Gang. But Cristina doesn’t know who else is in the Zelati Mafia, does she?”

“Andi, please, we’ve had enough..now if we could just get on with the ceremony…”

“No, we cant, she doesn’t know that TONY CAPUTO her GOOD FRIEND is really a SPY!”

“I kill you, Andi Ferro, I swear!”

“A spy! You don’t trust me? Oh Marco! No more of this, please!” yelled Cristina.

“So Cristina, who will you chose, me, or the man who doesn’t trust you?!?!?” Andi challenged.

“Marco, Andi, Please leave me!”

Just at that moment, Cristiano, Criz, and Maus stood up, and as if on cue they said “I won’t leave you Cristina!”

“OoOOOO!!!!!!” she wailed as she flailed her arms in the air running out the chapel.

Andi, in his prison wear and choppy bob limped to his lover, but just at that moment, Marco grabbed his prop from the UNLEASHED MEMORIES C.D. that was hanging on the wall and FLUNG it at Andi like a boomerang!!!

Andi dropped to the ground drenched in a mass of blood and tears cried out. “I will get you back!!! You just wait!!!”

Tony Caputo stood up and shouted

“No, Andi, I’ll get him back for you!”

“I thought you were on my side?” questioned Marco.

“NO way, I was in it for Cristina! I was going to comfort her after you and little Andi were BOTH DEAD! I wanted to MARRY HER!!! The Scabbias had arranged for us to be married, but then she found you and her family disowned her! I loved her and she loved me until you came into the scene. Cristina told me no hard feelings and joined that rock band of yours, but all along, I’d been plotting and planning against you, or anything else that would get in the way of me and my beautiful Cristina! This was planned way ahead of time! I was going to kill you today anyway!”

”But, Tony, what about the Zelati-Caputo Family Mafia? They’ll all be after you when they find out. Why, they’re all here today!”

“I know! That’s why I’m skippin’ the country! Now, should I kill you now or with the big guns later?”
"You betrayed me!" screamed Marco. "You just wanted to get to Cristina! You bastard!"

He laughed, an impish smile spreading across his face. He whipped out his hand gun and said, "Now, with everyone here as my witness, I will get rid of you once and for all!"


Marco fell onto the altar, the force of the bullet hitting his chest unbearable.

"NOO!" Cristina cried, running to his side. His tuxedo now soaked in blood, she began to sob and clutched his head in her hands. She kissed him and said, "I love you, Marco! I love you! You'll be okay! You'll survive!"

"What about me?!!?!?" Andi croaked from behind her. She rushed to his side next.

"Andi..." *SLAP* "You ruined my wedding! As much as I love you.....you were....you were...Oh! Now it's too late! You were..."

He worked up all the strength he had and grabbed her hands in his, building up more energy to do what he wanted to do for so long. "Cristina...I....love....you!" And he kissed her lips, as he had done on that fateful night.

And both of her lovers died.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!These stone tears are falling down on me, on my REGRETS!!!" she sang, but without the male vocals and the smooth bass line.

"HA HA HA HA!" Tony laughed menacingly. "And now, you are mine! MWAHAHAHA!!" He grabbed her by the arm and dragged her out of the church, despite everyone's attempts to stop him.

And they flew to Britain. ( )

Tony had purchased a grand castle the night before, knowing that he would have to steal Cristina away from everyone and hide her forever. You see, he had put roofies in her drink and she had fallen unconscious, so while she was asleep he took her into a bed chamber full of kinky sexual items.

When Cristina finally woke up, she took one look around and said, "Oh no! *dun dun dun dun* Here it is again! I need to know when I will fall in decay!"

"Yes, that's right! Since you don't love me, I guess I'm just gonna have to force my sex on you! HAHAHAHAHA!" And he hand-cuffed her to the bed.

He took off his clothes and slowly walked towards her....ready to pounce...

Suddenly there was a knock at the door. "Who's there?" Tony called.

"Pizza delivery!"

"Oh, okay. Come in! WAIT! I didn't order any-!"

"That's right!!!!!" Marco shouted, his super-hero cape flapping in the breeze. Andi trailed in behind him in a pair of tight spandex pants. ( ).

"But...I thought I killed you! My gun never fails!!!"

"No, it doesn't. In fact, it did kill us!" Andi cut in. "But fortunately for us, Cristiano's wife is a Wiccan and was able to bring us both back to life!"

Cristiano, Criz, and MAUS all walked into the room, all in their super hero attire. "Yeah!" Cristiano said. "That's why I married her!"

"N-n-n-o! This can't be!!!" Tony stammered. "Well, you'll never be able to get Cristina from me! She is my sexual object and lover! HAHAHAHA!!!"

“Oh Marco! Oh Andi! I’ve just decided I love you both! In fact I love you all! All of you! Cristiano, Criz, Maus, Maus’s wife! By golly I JUST CAN’T CHOOSE!!!” squealed Cristina filled with happiness because of the thought that all these people came to save her.

“Well, maybe we can all get married!” chirped Marco. “Truth is.. I love you all too!”

They group hugged Marco shot Tony with his AK-47 that was so technological you could fold it up and put it in your pocket. Tony died and they all ran off to the chapel which was filled with blood.

“Oh Andi, I’m so sorry,” said Marco.

“And I’m sorry too manâ,” replied Andi.

“Yeah, so am I,” said Criz.

“Why?” asked Marco.

“The whole time, I was with Cristina too.”

“Heyyy! SO was I!!” argued Maus and Cristiano!

“Okay..so what? I was with all of you, but…that doesn’t change anything right?” asked Cristina, batting her eyes.

“No, Bella!!!” they all droned on, exasperated at what one bombshell could do.

They all married and had a wonderful life together writing beautiful music and performing it. Here is their latest song:

Oh no, here it is again/ I need to know how this
Child is born and /these stone tears are falling down on me all my regrets
Looking at my hands/ searching these lines/ your devouring all the crumbs im leaving/
Don’t understand this wave I’m in/
I know I failed you/!
But I’ll make it up!!/
Maybe in a dream/
A reverie


Sunday, July 18th, 2004


Time:10:21 pm.
Mood: hyper.
LOL! What a great day! :-p I went to Michelle's nd we wrote this fucking HILARIOUS story about Lacuna Coil and this whole conspiracy!!! I'm gonna post it once we're done so all can laugh! HAHAHAHAHA! And so now I'm watching South Park and all is well! OOOH! I didn't tell you the best part!




I woke up this morning at 9:00 to extremely loud barking, and accordingly pressed my head really hard against my pillow to drown out the sound. When I woke up at 1, the dog was gone! My dad drove it back to New Jersey! WOOT WOOT! Yipee!

But now Haley's confused as to whether she should get a dog or a rabbit. I vote rabbit, but no one listens to me. lol. Ah well. W/E...

I'm gonna go watch more South Park! Ciao!

Saturday, July 17th, 2004

(4    songssing)

Subject:It's a dog-eat-dog world, man.
Time:10:41 pm.
Mood: confused.
Well, I believe that this will be one of those emo journal entries that Bry Y loves.

Today we got a dog. A beagle, actually...named Barney. The whole family (plus Emily) took a trip out to New Jersey to see him. He was originally from the Linden Animal Shelter, but they it's one of those evil facilities where they kill the dogs after ten days. So they have this program where a family can take the dog home for a while until it finds itself permanent owners...kind of like foster families. Anyway, Barney was staying with this nice young couple for about two weeks. They also had two other beagles (named Scooby and Shaggy...cute) and two cats. The one cat I met didn't care for me much...in fact, she didn't care for anyone. She mostly stayed huddled in a corner, and when someone tried to pet her she'd give them the evil eye until they went away. I got the message pretty quickly.

..Within a few minutes of being there Haley just begged and begged my parents to take Barney home, so they gave in, I guess. We had already taken one of the middle seats out of the mini-van in the event that we took the dog home, so it was easy. Just stuck him in there.

He was cute in the beginning, sure...Walked around the car, sniffed...But then he jumped up on my lap to look out the window. And he's not a small dog, either. My guess is that he's AT LEAST a year old, maybe more. Anyway, he kept jumping up and down, up and down, slobber flying everywhere. Then he sneezed on my foot. That was nasty. And then he was shedding like mad, leaving little white hairs all over my jeans and new shirt. Growl. And then to top it all off, he kept farting, to increase my already painful headache. Wonderful creatures, dogs...

Needless to say, by the end of the tedious car ride, I was ready to give the dog back without a fuss. But Haley seemed happy, so I layed off the insults for a bit. Later it got worse.

My mom, I could tell, wasn't happy. She made us dinner and then the two of us took a ride over to PetCo to get the beast some food and a crate to sleep in. We discussed it and both decided that this dog was not for our family. When we got back, we found that Emily had whacked Haley on the side of the head (accidentally) with a metal baseball bat. That just added to her stress.

When Emily and her mom left, my dad and mom started arguing about the dog. Who's fault it was, that my dad pressured my mom into getting it, blah blah blah, back and forth with accusations. And they did all of this in the living room. I swear, it was like a scene in some sort of twisted movie. Haley sitting next to the dog, who's lying down stretched out on the carpet, looking from the dog to my quarreling parents. And then, as if on cue, she started to cry. My parents didn't notice this, for they were too engrossed in their arguement to care. I went over and hugged her, telling her it would be okay and we'd get her a better dog...a puppy. Then finally my dad said, "Fine! It's all my fucking fault!" and walked off. My mom took Haley upstairs to talk to her, and I went upstairs to my room, only to find that the dog had pissed on the carpet in front of my door. Lovely...A sign of affection, I'm sure.

And that's how it ended. The whole family pissed off at each other. Grand. The fucking dog's torn us apart!!! E-gads. It's an absolute disaster. I didn't like the dog from the beginning, to be honest. There was something not right about it...it seemed to be in its own little dream world. Distant. Not like I'm any different..but that's another matter. A dog forever trapped in a reverie isn't very suitable for a little 9 year old, right? I, however, am allowed to be weird. =-/

So we've decided to see what happens with it tomorrow. We'll probably end up bringing it back on Monday, though. I was thinking about doing a divination to see if it's got a screwed up mind or not. Hey, it's an idea. But for now, prospects aren't looking too bright.

I was just glad Layla showed up. She had gone outside, obviously seeking refuge away from the dog, and I kept calling her, but I saw no sign of life for a while. But she came back later. This whole experience just proved that I am most definitely a cat person. I really don't get the appeal about dogs, anyway.

So that's my life. Current feelings? Confusion, depression, just plain fucked-up...

Wednesday, July 14th, 2004

(3    songssing)

Subject:la la la la la la laaaaaaaaaaa la la la la la la laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
Time:11:21 pm.
Mood: happy.
Okay, now I shall tell you about my vacation.

To sum it all up...we swam on Lake Martin, went tubing, blew things up, and ate until we were on the verge of regurgitating. That's it in a nutshell. Wanna here the longer version? Mmmkay.

Well when we got to the airport our flight was delayed for about 3 hours so we ended up getting to Birmingham at 1 in the morning. I would go on about the cute emo dude we saw, but I digress! (Shelly's line, of course).

Then my uncle nd Diona picked us up. I felt really bad about dragging her out b/c she's all pregnant and whatnot, but it was my dad's fault anyway (he didn't wanna rent a car...) and he should feel guilty!

Uhhh...well, we tried to sleep, but Jacob (now my cousin) kept waking us up at the freaking crack of dawn by knocking on the door repetitively until one of us got up and answered him. Geez. If there were three words to describe Jacob, they'd be loud, violent, and obsessive. Loud because he talks at the top of his lungs all the time, violent because he hits people, and obsessive because all he ever talks about is Spiderman and he thinks he IS this... arachnid superhero (heh). But he is only 4, so I'll give him a break. lol.

So anyway, the next day was the wedding. It wasn't a big ceremony or anything, we just went to the courthouse and this reverend married them by a fountain. Unfortunately, Katherine and I missed the entire f-ing thing! The rev. said, "Can you go inside and get two copies of these marriage certificates?" "Yeah.." So we went and stood on this incredibly long line for about 15 minutes and then when we finally get up there the guy says, "Okay...It'll be a minute..." and shuffles off as slowly as humanly possible to make copies. Then, of course, he still has to put the stamps on, and he does that pretty slowly too. When he's finally done, we ran outside only to discover that it was over and that we had arrived just in time to take pictures! Joy... But the thing that really pissed me off was that when I got back outside, the rev. says, "What took you so long?" GOD!!!! GEE, I DON'T F****** KNOW, LADY!

So that disturbed me greatly. But the good news is, they're gonna have a big ceremony and whatnot next year after they've got the baby situation sorted out. I think Diona's due sometime this week, so we're obviously going to go back for the Baptism n shit sometime in the fall.

The next day we went to Desoto Caverns. That was cool. I attempted to take pictures, but Katherine was being bitchy and wouldn't let me take them, so I had to do it when she wasn't looking. I got a few, but they kind of suck.

Then we traveled to the lake house (gorgeous place...growl) and went boating and stuff. The 4th of July was awesome! We went swimming in the morning, went to Chuck's (this popular pizza place right on the lake) for lunch, and then BBQ-ed at night. The night before we went off on a fireworks hunt and found a "TNT Fireworks" store and pretty much bought it out! So we also blew things up. That rocked. And uhh...afterwards we went back out on the boat to watch this huge fireworks display right over the lake. My family thought it was "amazing," but honestly I couldn't tell the difference between it and the ones held in NY. It was very long, but that's about it. W/e.

Hmmm...*thinks* We blew up fruit with rockets and stuff night after night after night. Fun for me, 'cause everyone knows I'm a pyro. Um...where else did we go? ...Oh yeah! Haley's little friend Danielle is moving to Mobile, AL and wanted Haley to stay at her new house for two nights. So Katherine and I went along in the car ride to meet them halfway. We encountered quite a few rednecks in our travels (I mean, REALLY REALLY REALLY redneck-ish people) and had fun laughing at them. And err...there was this guy in an identical boat to that of my uncle's stalking us one night when we were going out to eat (my uncle thought he was trying to steal some of our boat parts lol). We went tubing the next day...swimming...blah blah blah.

Then it was time to leave the lake *tear*. We stopped at my uncle's new mansion on the way back to his current one...I felt so poor. Anyway, me and Kath did a Cribs with her video camera! lol Quite funny, as anyone who's seen it can justify. His backyard is freaking HUGE! It has this overly large fish pond and then there's this incredible view and growl! It looks like the hills of Hollywood! LITERALLY! But without the Hollywood sign, of course. So yeah. Then we went back to his house and watched this hilarious episode of Curb Your Enthusiasm called "The Doll."

'Where's the head? I know you took the head, where is it? WHERE'S THE FUCKING HEAD? Your daughter is at home in hysterics, because her doll, JUDY, HAS BEEN DE-CAP-I-TAY-TED!!!!! And you took the head for God knows what reason! For some voodoo shit you're doin! Stop scratching your balls and tell me where the head is! You know what? I don't care...just bring me the fucking head. Just bring me the head, alright? GIVE ME THE HEAD!!!!'

LMFAO (and I really was..)Ah, good times, good times.

The last day we were in Alabama we went to the Birmingham Museum. Now I was thinking to myself, "What could possibly be in the BIRMINGHAM Museum?" But actually it was pretty interesting. Did you know they have one of the largest collections of antique china there? Heh. And they had this one awesome picture of California painted by some guy who's name I cannot recall at the moment...

The next day we went home. Our flight was delayed (AGAIN.) for another hour, so we were sitting in the airport reading. Yep. But there was this OVERLY good-looking guy there who just happened to start talking to my mom and be on our flight sitting in the row behind us. I won't go into details, but we kind of stalked the poor kid. lol. Oh well.

When we got home our house was a complete mess because we had had our new wood floors put in when we were away. The furniture was everywhere and everything was dusty. Blah. So we spent the rest of the day cleaning and getting everything back in order. I was glad to be home though, because by the end of the week I was pretty much fed up with everyone and was very home-sick. But hey, what can ya do? People irritate me a lot, especially my family.

So two days ago my mother and I dropped Haley off at a birthday party (Emily Bevaqua, you know, demon child?). When we got there we found that Grace (another one of Haley's many friends) had just gotten a puppy. So that once again sparked her annoyance about us refusing to get her one. My mom and I spent the rest of the day searching different pet stores for a promising Beagle. We found an adorable one at Shake-A-Paw, but it was 800 bucks and my dad would NEVER pay that much. My mom tried to haggle with the people there, and they were almost going for $650. But then my dad came home from work and said that his friend (who just happens to be a dog breeder) could get us one for $300. So that's where we are now in our search for a dog. I'm perfectly content with my cat, thank you very much. Tee hee.

Yesterday I hung out with Lisa and slept over her house last night. We watched Johnny Depp (sexy...) and stuff. Then we exercised for 1/2 hour and watched The Perfect Score. (I wish I was Scarlet Johanson-or h/e you spell it-!!!). Umm...yeah...we woke up at 2:00 today...And now we're just sitting here on the computer.

Yep. That's my life. I really wanna move to London. GRRRR. But that's only in a distant parallel universe of mine. I'll stop now. Hope you have a nice day.

Sunday, July 11th, 2004

(2    songssing)

Subject:Sweet Home Alabama!
Time:2:21 pm.
Mood: chipper.
Hee hee hee hee hee. I feel great....I've been deprived of a computer for almost 2 weeks now, and I'm at my uncle's dermatology office, so I seized the oppportunity and quickly ran to my LJ to see if anyone commented at all! And alas, you did! Thank you, peoples. Mucho appreciated. Heh.

So yes! I'm here now...Oh no, they're making me leave now! I must turn off the computer, so I'll tell you all about my escapade down South when I return home tomorrow. Wow...I need AIM...

FEELINGS: Kind of mixed feelings now. Happy/Sad!


Tuesday, June 29th, 2004

(6    songssing)

Time:5:37 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
I'm in a very good mood today! At Lisa's house now. She just broke up with Greg! LOL Cheers to you, bitch! "Set me free, your HEAVEN'S A FREAKING LIE!!!" (Oh that Lacuna Coil! They make me very, very glad). hee hee. I think that's relevant, don't you? =) But anyway, congrats about being single again! WOOHOO! You're free!

On another note, I leave to go down south on Thursday night! WOOT WOOT! Me n Kathy'll have a great time! PAAAARTY at Piggly Wiggly! LOL! ....*cricket, cricket* You stupid northern folks don't get the redneck way. Tee hee.

So yep! That's my life.

Oh yes, LJ renovations compliments of Kathy! Thanks again! It looks kick-ass!

Gonna go chill w/ Asil!



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